EMBRACE

Last week was long and exhausted. There are still a lot of work to finish but I do think I need to take a break and relax for a little bit.

I took a break yesterday night after studio work. I did a quick sketch on canvas. It is memory from a trip. I miss those mountains and the sky. Once the semester is over, I can't wait to go on trips again!

MEND

I barely do painting of people, so I think I might try this time.

Not quite sure how to write about these two paintings but I like them.

REDISCOVER

This is a painting about dream.

The floating tulips
The lighting of the ocean
The reaching to somewhere

Dreams are vague and difficult to capture.

Anyhow, I am trying to like it after painting it.

ENCHANT

I have a chance to talk to one of my high school friends this week. We haven't talked to each other for almost 7 years. Now he is working in China, while I am studying in US. The phone call lasted for 3 hours, we talked about memories from high school, we talked about our life. He can remember so many stories that I can barely recall.

"There are too many things that I have to deal with now, but thinking those memories from the past make me happy." He said. He escapes to past when he doesn't want to face the reality. I feel his struggle but I can't help. The only thing I can do is to listen.

ROUND

The first one is my color palette that I use to mix and organize my colors. I have been using it for almost a year and half. I am waiting to a point when it can actually become a painting.

When I paint for this week, I am thinking the time when I went to the beach in Shenzhen. The coolness of water, the heat wave and the crowd. Even though, everything stays calm and chill.  

HOLD (ADMIRE)

I thought about water at first.

And the memory of learning swimming comes into my mind. When I was under the water, I see different shapes and all the reflections. They are fluctuating, even I don't know what they could be and I could barely hear sound underwater, I enjoy the randomness of that beauty.

After I finish this painting, I heard that the movie - The shape of water - is the big winner for Oscar. I look at my painting, and I think, this could be the shape of water.

At this point, I can hear Tony say to me, everything has connection.

ANSWER (RESPOND)

I think this music : 远方 - Distance responds well with this painting.

Last week my friends tell me that I am always really calm when I am working, they never feel that I could be possibly stress. That's not true, however, I also know that sometimes being emotionally doesn't help me to solve the problem. My parents never make decisions for me, so I have to deal with everything by myself since I grow up. Years after years, I start to know myself and I practice planning my life, so I might look calm but I can better control myself I guess.